An old Unpublished Post..

As I was pondering weather or not to revive ye ol blog.. I found this old post sitting in the draft. It was written over 2 years ago. Just thought I would share it..


Do you evaluate yourself? I do. Too much and too constantly. When I use the word 'too' I really don't know what I'm comparing it with. Oops... 'don't know' is one of the 3 things that my new Boss says he dislikes.

'Don't know', 'Don't like' and '...' and I don't remember the third one. Hmm perhaps it was 'don't remember' ?? eheh

So well, we had a division meeting today. It was an induction for our new Boss if you must. For us to tell him about us and for us to gain his trust.

So we did the usual round the table introduce name, hobbies, family etc. When it came to my turn ...I didnt seem to have sold myself at all.

Gosh if I was a product I would be one that had a nice packaging with no nutrition facts written on it. Like if I was a biscuit...you wouldn't buy me cos you wouldn't find anywhere in the packaging stating that Im made of Pure Belgian Chocolate and Trans Fat Free. You would just see the words 'Biscuit' and 'made in france' and that surely wouldn't be enough for you to buy in.

If I know all these why didn't I do my best to make my first impression a lasting one? All I said was my name, where I worked before and mentioned that I had been a writer for an online magazine before and meekly added I was a model and that I lived in Cyberjaya and have no kids yet. Such a pity..a bimbo.

Sigh. I just didn't feel comfrotable getting excited telling everyone

- how I enjoyed go-karting (for fear of being challenged for a race. I am not the best but I enjoy it!),

- of how I felt so free on the dance floor and on a stage (again..for fear of being forced to prove myself),

- of how I am obsessed with the beauty of the subconscious mind - deciphering dreams and putting them on paper and one day plan to publish a beautiful (but dark) picture book,

- and of the current dance/artform that I have taken up (yeah, Im not revealing it here either but its something like gymnastics)

Then I ponder (I hate getting after thought because I believe that the moment is HERE and NOW). I start to evaluate myself : Why did't I sell myself. Was it because I had my guard up? Was it because I didn't see the need to share my personal life with everyone just for the heck of it? Was it because I was not proud of myself? Was it because I was self conscious?

I have no idea what impression that I gave of...but for me judging myself I think seemed like a pretty boring person

Fast forward to current times and it is pretty much the same, I still don't over sell myself especially to people who I meet the first time. But I don't think I'm boring, instead I think if you spend enough time with me I have a lot of tricks up my sleeve!

Nail Wraps

Wow, this is my first time blogging from phone! That's great cos I have a little baby and every time I open my laptop he magically wakes up. He is sleeping beside me now.. Hope till I finish this entry.

So well, have you ever tried nail wraps? I think everyone should! I tried Sephora ones before but they were rather expensive (rm30 ++). I decided then they were for me quite worth it as I love beautiful nails but dread going to nail spas cos I hate waiting. I have this strong 'I'm wasting hours of my life' feeling.

RM8.90 for a pack of 12 sizes

This is not my first time so I'm quite confident on handling the nail wraps. Firstly, although it may look foolproof please read the instructions found on your nail wrap packaging. However it's usually just choose the size, stick it on and tear off the edges.

Place the rounded end on the inside

The nail wrap I'm using us only rm8.90. Even from the touch of it I can tell its inferior to Sephora ones. It's very thick like cellophane tape n the sticker doesn't seem too strong at all. When you fold it over your nail it's pretty rough and hard to tear it out perfectly.

Stick it on and fold it back before tearing it off

I manage to do all nails.. Now the test would be whether the wrap will last. I'd be quite surprised if it doesn't come out in the shower. Well  going to bed now so I hope that the nail wrap will ' set'.

"I'd be quite surprised if it didn't come off in the shower"

Attempt at creative shot 

So I woke up in the morning and made breakfast. Bacon, eggs and baked beans. The fact that it was scrumptious made it okay that the cheapo nail wraps that got me excited didn't last. Oh and I didn't even hit the shower yet. Just washed dishes only.

Uwaaaaaaa :( Gimme back RM8.90 nao

No wonder the picture on the pack had a shocked expression

2 out of 4 promised on the pack was not met! It is so not Long Wear and it is definitely not Shiny Nails 'ALWAYS!' unless 'always!' means sleep, get up and make breakfast. There goes my short lived excitement. The end.

How NOT to take a selfie

So my friend showed me this video of a young korean girl taking a low angle video of herself and I decided to try it myself. 

I think we should all post of Facebook profile pictures like this. Goodbye high angle birds eye view little cute ant looking selfie. 

After awhile I realised that babies must really love thier mom alot no matter what they look like cos from their angle, this is what thier looking at practically everyday till they can sit up or stand.

A Bimbo Nightmare

Both my husband and I went to bed past 3.30am doing work. I fell asleep shortly after my head hit the pillow. I was rudely awakened by a nightmare…but awoke to my hubby patting me reassuringly. ..

Me: I had a nightmare
Sujen: Yeah I know

You see we are actually preparing to move out of our apartment and I have put aside some clothes to give away…

Me: (in my dream) we were sitting in the hall and this Chinese couple walked into the house and into the room and took my pile of giveaway clothes, heading really quickly back out. The guy was carrying the whole pile and the girl was carrying something scrunched up in her hands. I followed them out to the corridor and demanded to see what the girl took. She then showed me it was my Le An Maxima top! I was so mad!

Me: (keeping calm) I’m sorry you cant have that. That’s not for giving away.
Girl: No. I want it.
Me: No you can’t!

I try to snatch it out of her hand but she just wouldn’t let go! There was a massive tug-of-war.

Me: Give it back now!
Girl: No, It’s mine!
Me: No!!!

I managed to get my beloved top just as my husband came out to break-up the fight.…………

Sujen: What a nightmare ….Me: Hahah..yeah..its actually kinda funny now

Nokia Ovi India TVC

Wow It's been 5 months since my last post. What happen to me all this while you may wonder. Well I kind of semi hung up my model shoes for an office job. Yeah, so my life as a model is, well close to non-existant. I do miss it very much though but you will always reach a split road in your life where you need to decide. I don't come from a rich family nor did I marry up. Ends need to be met. Taking the road less traveled was fun and I would do it again in another life at an earlier age. If you are doing it alone (taking the road less travelled) thats all good. If you have your loved ones, well naturally you would chose the safe path and thats why I detoured.

Anyway, here's something new that I managed to do one of the weekends. Its an ad for Nokia Ovi India. See if you can spot me yea! A friends told me she saw it when she was in Perth on Raj tv. Here in Malaysia we can only see it on youtube. Well at least we have youtube! When I was in China 2 weeks back for work I found out that they don't have youtube or Facebook! WOw!

Here is the TVC, see if you can spot an African lady ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qPKp4gIy8Yc

Silent April

Silent April
She sits on the wall
Silent April
There's no time to stall
Silent April
Catch me if I fall
Silent April
When there's no one at all

Come May
Im on my way
Come May
No longer a fray
Come May
Wash the gray

Come May

Im here to stay

Why I don't Facebook Much Anymore

Its really pissing of that some people just love they joy of hurting other people in anyway possible. These sadists get a kick out of making life miserable to those they see as a threat to them. Insecure !

Some low life nut job has been carrying gossip about my Facebook pictures, namely the ones where I was in swim wear (read bikini), it is a freaking beach where that is what everyone wore! Its not like I wore a bikini in the middle of chow kit or to temple or to my niece's birthday party! I would consider them pretty decent actually...its not like I have Playboy Bunny like Size Double D Bazoonkas to talk about!

Whoever you are.... One Day...One fine day.... that 3 fingers that were pointing at you while you were pointing at me, will give you 3 times more of whatever nasty things you said about me. This is a promise.

Oh the Joys of Facebook!